I contradict myself constantly, and the title of this blog is one. I say boyfriend yet I'm the one who accepted his proposal, why you may ask? I have no idea, domestic life is not bliss, all I do is run after him and his laundry. I never get to drink, as he never gets the chance, i think he thinks that I dont drink and thats his excuse for already starting. He cant prepare for christmas, annerversaries or my birthday, he claims he has no money, excuse me! you knew my birthday was coming up why didnt you put aside 5-10 bucks each week for a month prior to the special occasion?? I earn less than him and I still manage to buy him something special or make or do something special. Last year I managed to save 200 bucks every week to pay for us to go to aussie for his 21st. I cant even get a Happy birthday in the morning. Why do I get the boyfriend who cant be bothered (sorry, fiance) after all i give, i drive him everywhere using my petrol never asking for any money even when I'm going to porirua I'll drop him off in town first. Relationships suck ass so much, why do we bother to have them??